try to save my self but my self keeps slipping away....


Yet a another new job. working as network operations center Tech (one part helpdesk one part sys-admin one part WTF)

One my main issues is that i am good at the "work" but i fail in documenting my time this a major cause of issues for my manager and for my coordinater who is exstreamly sick of it.
i know the issue i work one it but when i am in the middle of digging out issues and in the technical/artistic center of an issue (yes there is art in solving computer/human issues ) the last thing i think of is oh i need to stop and record the amout of time i spent doing blah blah blah.

not surehow to fix this as it is a issue that can and will get one fired from a job that has managment that never will never see your work. add to this that i am the only full time n.o.c.t so i take the majority of first contact calls.

in other news.

3 kids 1 wife and a fish in a house ment for 1 wife 1 kid and a fish. need to sell but no one is looking to buy. need to build but the place is a town house so no can change the outside. so we stay packed in and bugging the crap out of each other.

child 1. 9 year old girl. smart mind and mouth can add just the right word at the wrong time grin and step away from the blast.
IQ:135
child 2. 4 year old who reads at a 3rd grade level math at 1st grade and spells at end of K. but has the social development of a 2.5 YEAR OLD.
IQ:165 (oh shit)
child 3. 1.25 years old not able to figure him out yet as he still speaks mostly his own personal lang. puring like a cat is his way of saying please and thank you it is cute but if some one does not get it he gets vary angry. he knows meny words but does not feal the need to use them often as the other 2 understand him almost perfectly and translate for him if his mother and I don't get it.
IQ:unkown

add to this mix
my wife who is exstreamly organized but can not keep up with the kids.
IQ: 145
and my self who is well flipping insane and can not keep a train of thought for more thenb a few min (diagnosed ADhD with slight autistic traits of living mostly in my own mind (and some times getting lost in there))
IQ: 16 cat test ranges from 80 to 180 over all 140)


now why the hell i added the IQ scores when they are only a minor indicator of academic intelligence (not wisdom or useful knowledge) hmm i just like numbers.

understanding the way this is turning out means i have had less time for art or even keeping up with my computer training. well my attention span is waining so i must move on to somthing else i just felt like writing somthing and noow have rambled on and on and on and included data that has no use but to get it off my mind in a forem that would allow others to see. i don't know why this matters but then whining to a book that no one reads is not very helpful nor will it give me the same feel hmm ok i was .. look at my foot it is all... hmm good night world i am starting to ramble about..a bead? .. how i am rambling ...


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